Monday, September 7, 2009

With Twitchy Hands and Sweat-beaded Brow

I’ve reached seven days smoke-free and I’m slowly attempting to return to writing. It is only now that I’ve put down the smokes that I’ve become aware of how vital they were to my personal writing process. Stumped for an idea? Take a walk on the parapet and have a cigarette. Not sure how to form the next section? Light up a Camel and turn the idea over in my head until I found a crack to grasp. Working without that “creative tool” is like starting rehabilitative physical therapy. I know how things are supposed to work, but my mind and body aren’t sure as to how to make it happen.

Unfortunately, things worth doing are never easy and the only way back home is usually via the hard road. I’ve no choice but to knuckle down and work past this. Posting will now resume, but I wouldn’t expect much initially if I were you. Just finally being able to string a few sentences together in a cohesive manner will be my initial goal. In many ways, it’s as if I’m starting this blog from scratch and attempting to find my voice and bearings again. This could result in some interesting choices of topics and direction, as well as a varying level of quality. Things with crystallize over time, I hope.

7 comments:

Timeshadows said...

We're all pulling for your daily successes. :)

Will Douglas said...

Dude, I smoked Camels, too! So I know that they can be beaten. You have a lot of support out here in blogland. Hang in there.

Andreas Davour said...

Yeah, hang in there! It can be done, I know.

sirlarkins said...

Keep it up! :)

E.G.Palmer said...

Now it's time to start drinking more coffee! Cup after cup of black smoking java, man!

netlich said...

Congrats! You can definitely do it!

With you all the way man! I am going strong for 8 months now . Although I am not gonna say am free of this bad habit - I am going to say that I am going to be fighting it till the day I die...

Felipe Budinich said...

"Stumped for an idea? Take a walk on the parapet and have a cigarette."

I suffer from this very same creative crutch (in fact' I'm terrified about dropping the habit just because of this).

The other thing that works for me is to take showers (but that would need to be too often to be productive).

I think it has to do with the anxiety that develops as you move forward in a creative process. A pause is needed to refocus... right now I'm experimenting with preparing tea to see if it helps.

Keep morale up!